Cindy's blog

2006-12-25T07:13:00.000-08:00

Merry Xmas!

These days I had a lot of parties and happiness ! Xmas, the west festivel, is very good reason to get joyfulness. So it is popular in China now.

Althought the days were not special I still felt surrounded with happiness! I think it is the happiest Xmas I had so far. Because my husband was around me most of the times and we enjoyed these times that is the most important thing! But the only pity was I paused my studying lately! So tonight I really need to do something related to English whatever it is.

Now my husband is being around me. I felt there was a lot of mistakes in my blog I can see it in his eyes!:-( But Do not mind it is just a process!

2006-12-15T05:15:00.000-08:00

I worried about my husband a little bit!

Lately there are something always bother my husband. I do not know how to comfort him and release his steam! Hopefully he can adjust his mood!

Today I did the housework all day. There are lots of dust in my appartment. Beijing had really heavy pollution recently. Couse the snow still didn't want to come here up to now. Whole city looks like a chimney. I heard that will be really windy tonight. Actually I hate the windy day a lot. It can make your skin really dry and your hair looks like a ghost! But it will make the sky blue and hopefully it can blow the pollution go away.

I wish it will be a good day tomorrow and my husband enjoy his time!:-)

2006-12-13T06:42:00.000-08:00

A new start

I did not touch my blog for a long time. Couse I could not see it online. Maybe these is some limit. I have no idea!
In these days, I had to creat anther blog, so I had another one now. But I don't want to cancel this one because I already have some feelings of this one! Therefore I will write this blog in English and anther in Chinese:-)
Lately I read at night, and some times I translated a little abit articles in English quietly, Is it good? I think so, haha!
Hopefully I can get a big improvement!!!

2006-01-12T10:12:00.000-08:00

同志尚需努力

刚看完英语，现在头大如斗！这两天总是睡不好，每天都是等到天蒙蒙亮才能入睡。尽管老公电话中不时地给我减压，但我的睡眠却像是丢了！

现在虽然过得像个苦行僧，但我还是有点小小的佩服自己，因为我已经明白结果不会很好，但我并没有放弃努力，这可是很少有的啊！呵呵！

现在人们做事，都会先去想会得到什么结果，如果预期不会太好大多都会放弃。但仔细想想其实我们放弃的不仅是还不确定出现的不理想的结果，还有在努力过程中收获的出乎意料。只是当我们望着那渺茫的希望努力时，的确需要一点勇气和毅力。

蛮干

2006-01-08T07:37:00.000-08:00

老公去了新加坡，我一整天呆在家里和英语较劲，太痛苦了！写作：绞尽脑汁的想单词，想理由；听力：耳忙眼急的抓单词；阅读：挖空心思的认单词；就语法好点，却也只是一知半解！每一分钟都在面对自己的知识匮乏，真是天大的灾难啊！
这几天的强攻到底能取得多大进展，我并不确定，但我必须顶着。我知道路漫漫其修远矣，我也还是得顶着。因为该面对的迟早都要面对，还是赶早吧！

人生要面对很多的诱惑，有大有小。其实哪个更能让人就范呢？应该是小得吧。因为大的诱惑，也有大的风险，人们在面对时就会掂量着点。而小的诱惑所带来的危害往往是潜在的，比如TV，我们总想着看一会，不会影响什么，可谁知时间一去不复返，当我们再次按下power，思想又开始跟睡眠的诱惑做起斗争！我们每时每刻都在被这些小小的诱惑缠绕着，有人妥协，有人斗争也有人不为所动。而我很明显，大多数时间都在对诱惑说yes。哎！衰人！

Howere 衰人也要自强不息了，看吧，谁与争锋，还看今朝！哈哈哈哈！汗、、、、、

2005-12-16T00:02:00.000-08:00

梦

空灵无限，轻如鹅毛般漫天飞舞着，寂寞着。。。。
像是不远的灯火阑珊处，
却凭使出全力，也只有无奈的望着！
那是如此伸手可及的温暖，却偏是够不到，拼出命去的呐喊，
声音却在出口的一瞬消失了！
恐惧渗入了黑夜，冰冷冰冷。。。。
唯一能觉出得暖，
只是身上的薄纱那一点的红色。。。。

unlucky on stock

2005-12-08T00:42:00.000-08:00

It was unlucky in these days. My hubby suffered a striking on stock and he was very depressed. Therefore I worried about him. Luck is difficult to catch just like wind. I want him to be happy even if without enough money but it seems like my desire as if impossibly happend in our life. Because the society in this time needs money in everywhere and we always compare to others so it is difficult to find the real happiness. I believe the welfare does not have relations with money. But I have no idea how to make him happy. All I can do just to pray and to study hard!

should be better

2005-11-29T07:28:00.000-08:00

These days I thought about how to be a good wife. First of all I should treat myself well in order to be a good wife, I think.

If I am happy then they will be happy too who stay with me . I love my husband so much but I lost myself in my love. It is not a good thing is it? Because how much you pay then how much you want to gain!So sometimes I felt it was unfair that he doesn't love me was not as much as I love him. You see, I always want him to be here with me. But in fact it is impossible. Because he is a man who needs success in this society so he needs to communicate with people, and I knew it well. But I still want him to always be here. I thought the reason was I didn't live in my life. I just lived in his life. So that was the reason why I was not happy when he leaved me alone. Now I am thinking I should come back to myself and do something I will enjoy it. For instance : reading, writing or anything I can do. And I should enjoy those time when I stay alone at home. I should let him relax in our life, shouldn't I?

we can enjoy our life for every moment , this is my hope!^_^

2005-11-18T00:40:00.000-08:00

My husband will come back soon

Tomorrow night my husband will be home, I am glad to meet him and I miss him very much. I knew he was very hard in Chicago GSB. I should do something let him happy and relax.

I was very happy that he finally realized the familly is important to him today.I could feel that he care about me more than before. That was true feelings to touch the happiness!

Although it is easy for people to change I still hope our emotion will be admired and stable for ever.

2005-11-17T13:30:00.000-08:00

blackout last night

Yesterday evening I was finishing my meal. Suddenly my room
became deeply dark .I realized immediately that my a paretment out off the electricity
which I bought last time .
However I was not worried about it very much because I know, I can buy it on ATM.
Though my heart became iciness when I went to all of the ATM around my village by bicycle
in that the system was closed.

Fortunately there were some candles in my home they could bring a little light to me.
In a minute I realized why the antiquity said: one inch of time is just like one inch of gold. because they could do nothing when it is dark outside. so they treasured the time very much.

Today the modern science and technology have enriched our life. The light extend our working time that we can make use of it. The television can make us happly at the boring night.
But meanwhile it also waste our time . Sometimes we lost ourselvse in the modern science and technoogy. however the fact is what people's intertia and avarice make it. Because the time is held by ourselvse.

After all I have enjoyed this night without electricity at least!

2005-11-15T12:53:00.000-08:00

Dance is my favorite, and I feel luck that is my career.

Our school will hold a performance on early December. The dance was part of the performence and I was in charge of it. However the dance has been still in disorder and I worried about it a little bit . Though English and TOEFL are the biggest problems to me also.

But Up to now I still have no a strategy.
I think the men who will pass the TOEFL that should be absorbed in it.
and I believe, there is nobody who wants to take time to do other things like me.
However maybe I still have time to plan for it, haha! hopefuly!

study at home

2005-11-15T01:15:00.000-08:00

Study English at home

Toefl is just like a mountain that I have to climb. However God knows how bad my English is. And I still have no idea how to make it better and improve it faster!

Today I stayed at home and learned English but let me frustrated as before, because there are many mistakes in my exercise.

Athough English is difficulty I will be unremitting.

This blog maybe has many mistakes but I need to face it and continue with courage.
After all it is just a practice, a process!

初学者

2005-11-13T12:50:00.000-08:00

长到这么大，却越来越觉得自己不懂的事实在太多。社会发展得太快了，想跟上时代的脚步还真是件挺不容易的事！
小时候总在想等什么时候上完大学，就不用这样再听妈妈在耳旁整天唠叨“学习学习”了；总觉得那时候已是一身本领的我，足以从容应对自己的生活。可谁成想，已活到了博士后的年纪，才真正领悟什么叫做学海无涯！
新鲜的事物让我目不暇接，从踏出学校的那一刻，才知道一切还是要从新开始；到现在才恍然--生命在很多个时刻，都可能要重新开始。人们不得不去接受，这个世界不存在向往中的纯粹的安全感，我们的心中总是会住着些恐慌。当然，是强者，还是弱者也就在人们面对它时所持有的态度决定了。我从不否认自己的软弱，但承认有时也是一种放过自己的方法，并不只是说明你的诚实。

面对一个信息爆炸的时代、适者生存的社会，对于一个从小只专注于一门事业的我来说，总闭塞于一个狭窄的领域，不懂的事，实在是很多。gosh!井底之蛙已经做的太久了，是时候勇敢地探出头来了。

让我永远抱着一个初学者的心态，去了解这纷繁的世界吧！