should be better

These days I thought about how to be a good wife. First of all I should treat myself well in order to be a good wife, I think.

If I am happy then they will be happy too who stay with me . I love my husband so much but I lost myself in my love. It is not a good thing is it? Because how much you pay then how much you want to gain!So sometimes I felt it was unfair that he doesn't love me was not as much as I love him. You see, I always want him to be here with me. But in fact it is impossible. Because he is a man who needs success in this society so he needs to communicate with people, and I knew it well. But I still want him to always be here. I thought the reason was I didn't live in my life. I just lived in his life. So that was the reason why I was not happy when he leaved me alone. Now I am thinking I should come back to myself and do something I will enjoy it. For instance : reading, writing or anything I can do. And I should enjoy those time when I stay alone at home. I should let him relax in our life, shouldn't I?

we can enjoy our life for every moment , this is my hope!^_^

My husband will come back soon


Tomorrow night my husband will be home, I am glad to meet him and I miss him very much. I knew he was very hard in Chicago GSB. I should do something let him happy and relax.

I was very happy that he finally realized the familly is important to him today.I could feel that he care about me more than before. That was true feelings to touch the happiness!

Although it is easy for people to change I still hope our emotion will be admired and stable for ever.

blackout last night

Yesterday evening I was finishing my meal. Suddenly my room
became deeply dark .I realized immediately that my a paretment out off the electricity
which I bought last time .
However I was not worried about it very much because I know, I can buy it on ATM.
Though my heart became iciness when I went to all of the ATM around my village by bicycle
in that the system was closed.

Fortunately there were some candles in my home they could bring a little light to me.
In a minute I realized why the antiquity said: one inch of time is just like one inch of gold. because they could do nothing when it is dark outside. so they treasured the time very much.

Today the modern science and technology have enriched our life. The light extend our working time that we can make use of it. The television can make us happly at the boring night.
But meanwhile it also waste our time . Sometimes we lost ourselvse in the modern science and technoogy. however the fact is what people's intertia and avarice make it. Because the time is held by ourselvse.

After all I have enjoyed this night without electricity at least!

Dance is my favorite, and I feel luck that is my career.

Our school will hold a performance on early December. The dance was part of the performence and I was in charge of it. However the dance has been still in disorder and I worried about it a little bit . Though English and TOEFL are the biggest problems to me also.

But Up to now I still have no a strategy.
I think the men who will pass the TOEFL that should be absorbed in it.
and I believe, there is nobody who wants to take time to do other things like me.
However maybe I still have time to plan for it, haha! hopefuly!

study at home

Study English at home

Toefl is just like a mountain that I have to climb. However God knows how bad my English is. And I still have no idea how to make it better and improve it faster!

Today I stayed at home and learned English but let me frustrated as before, because there are many mistakes in my exercise.

Athough English is difficulty I will be unremitting.

This blog maybe has many mistakes but I need to face it and continue with courage.
After all it is just a practice, a process!

初学者

长到这么大，却越来越觉得自己不懂的事实在太多。社会发展得太快了，想跟上时代的脚步还真是件挺不容易的事！
小时候总在想等什么时候上完大学，就不用这样再听妈妈在耳旁整天唠叨“学习学习”了；总觉得那时候已是一身本领的我，足以从容应对自己的生活。可谁成想，已活到了博士后的年纪，才真正领悟什么叫做学海无涯！
新鲜的事物让我目不暇接，从踏出学校的那一刻，才知道一切还是要从新开始；到现在才恍然--生命在很多个时刻，都可能要重新开始。人们不得不去接受，这个世界不存在向往中的纯粹的安全感，我们的心中总是会住着些恐慌。当然，是强者，还是弱者也就在人们面对它时所持有的态度决定了。我从不否认自己的软弱，但承认有时也是一种放过自己的方法，并不只是说明你的诚实。

面对一个信息爆炸的时代、适者生存的社会，对于一个从小只专注于一门事业的我来说，总闭塞于一个狭窄的领域，不懂的事，实在是很多。gosh!井底之蛙已经做的太久了，是时候勇敢地探出头来了。

让我永远抱着一个初学者的心态，去了解这纷繁的世界吧！