should be better

These days I thought about how to be a good wife. First of all I should treat myself well in order to be a good wife, I think.

If I am happy then they will be happy too who stay with me . I love my husband so much but I lost myself in my love. It is not a good thing is it? Because how much you pay then how much you want to gain!So sometimes I felt it was unfair that he doesn't love me was not as much as I love him. You see, I always want him to be here with me. But in fact it is impossible. Because he is a man who needs success in this society so he needs to communicate with people, and I knew it well. But I still want him to always be here. I thought the reason was I didn't live in my life. I just lived in his life. So that was the reason why I was not happy when he leaved me alone. Now I am thinking I should come back to myself and do something I will enjoy it. For instance : reading, writing or anything I can do. And I should enjoy those time when I stay alone at home. I should let him relax in our life, shouldn't I?

we can enjoy our life for every moment , this is my hope!^_^